Baby, just say yes ღ

Our story

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ღ Our Story ღ

I stare out at the raindrops falling from the sky, the droplets of water trickling down the window like the tears on my cheeks. Sitting by the window, I glanced back to the time when we were together - when everything in the world was right, and nothing could tear us apart. I thought of the memories we had together, the time we spent together, endless calls at night and warm hugs.

This story goes way back to the time when I was still in high school. I was a freshman on the first day of school. When I first set my eyes on him, I knew, deep down, there was something between us – some force-chemistry, which kept us connected. However, I knew we could never be together. He was by far the hottest guy in school and I was a nobody. We bumped into one another outside class and I was embarrassed but somehow overwhelmed as I felt adrenalin pump in my body. I was somewhat startled when he actually spoke to me and asked me out for a drink as an apology. Standing there, gazing into his eyes, somehow gobsmacked, I nodded frantically without uttering a word.

Our outing was special. He turned out to be the nicest guy I knew-or maybe the only guy I knew- and my affection for him grew fonder and fonder with each increasing day. I would stare at him in the hallway, just the sight of him makes my heart beat faster, and when he turned and waved at me, I would blushingly smile, turning away, pretending to be occupied with something else while secretly smiling to myself. We went out more often and as the days past, we grew closer and closer. He took me as his best friend, but in my heart, I had always wished that it would be more than that.

I still remember that day when he came up to me and told me he was in love with Cecelia and was going to ask her to be his. I was crushed, hurt and broken as I plastered a smile on my face, all the while encouraging and supporting him. Deep down in me, I felt like my whole world was tearing apart. It wasn’t long before the two of them became an item and he cast me aside just to please her. I hated her and I selfishly hoped that he would soon break up with her, somehow. Then, one day, when I was in my room, agonizing at the irony of my life, I heard a knock on the door. When I opened the door, I came face to face with a teary-eyed, sad-looking guy. He just stood there, falling apart, right in front of my eyes. He came in and fell back on the sofa. His face buried in his hands, the sobs were muffled. I was stunned and barely able to move, watching the guy I love so much hurt. I didn’t know what to do. I felt my legs started moving towards his direction and my arms tightening around his shoulder when I reached him.

“Cecelia dumped me,” he forced the words out between his sobs and my hatred for Cecelia grew more intense.

How could she be so cruel to him? Standing in front of him, looking at him, he’s such a nice and sweet guy. Why did she have to hurt him? The questions kept playing in my head. When he felt better, he apologized for ignoring me before and thanked me for listening. I felt a small pang as he said that. When he left and went back home, I sat on my bed and stared blankly into space, trying to absorb what just happened. Although I felt sad for him, a part of me was happy because now, I stand a chance.

The next day, when we met in school, I was glad to see that he was looking a bit better than yesterday and went up to talk to him. He told me he is trying to forget about her and move on. Soon, we were talking like there was no tomorrow, catching up with one another and I smiled, glad that everything is back like before. Before we know it, half a semester was gone and the highlight of the semester, the school’s prom, came rolling. One day, while we were walking back after school, he asked me to be his date for the night. I agreed, grinning ear to ear.

The prom night came and we went there together. The school was crowded with students, all dancing to the beaty music playing on the background. His friends pulled him to dance and he caught hold of my hand, pulling me along. We danced and rocked to the songs played, having the greatest time of our lives. Then, a slow song started playing. He held out his hand and I took it happily. We were standing so close that I could take in his scent. When the song ended, he looked at me, all the while leaning closer towards me. Our eyes close and I felt a tingly sensation ran through my nerves as our lips touched. His lips were soft and warm on mine. We stood there for awhile, with his arms locked around my waist and mine on his shoulder, wanting the moment to last forever. When we finally tear apart reluctantly, he smiled to me and my stomach fluttered. It was the greatest night of my life. I remembered every single detail, from the softness of his lips to the song playing at that moment.

After the prom, he sent me back home. When we reached my room, he followed me in to have a drink. We talked about the prom, the people there, not once bringing up the topic of the kiss. I was disappointed as I thought he does not like me and what happened earlier on meant nothing to him. He drank coffee as we stopped for awhile to catch our breath. Sensing the tension in the room, he placed his cup on the table and turned to face me.

He started, “Hayley, I have a confession.”
“Yeah?” I answered hopefully.
“I.. I.. I like you. I’ve always liked you but I wasn’t sure if you liked me so I dared not ask you. I was afraid that it would affect our friendship. But, what happened tonight, what happened just now, I just can’t hold in my feelings for you any longer.”

I stared at him, speechless.

“Okay, what I’m trying to say is… Will you be my girlfriend?”

It took me awhile to digest what he just said. When he did not get a reply from me, he cleared his throat and attempt to speak again but I cut in.

“I like you too. I’ve always liked you. Since the time I first saw you. People will call it love at first sight. You caught my eyes on the first day of school. “
“So.. Will you?”
“Yes, I will. More than anything in this world.”

As he listened to my answer, a smile crept up his face and we kissed again, more passionately this time. We locked in each other’s embrace before he left. That night, I went to bed and dreamt of us together. The next morning, I woke up and realized that it was summer vacation. I felt warm and cheerful as my life felt so complete. I have him and a long holiday to spend with him. Little did I know that our time was running out. We went to the beach together that day. The sun was shining ever-so-brightly, birds chirping happily and the sky so clear. We spent the whole day, rolling in the sand, swimming in the sea and surfing. Then, he brought me to a fancy restaurant for dinner before going to the movies. We watched a horror movie together, his arms around me all the while, protecting me. After the movie, he sent me home with his new ride. On the way back, I suddenly remembered that I had to get something from the supermarket. He dropped me at a nearby supermarket and waited in the car while I ran down to the shop.

While I was running across the road, out of a sudden, I heard tyres screeching and a loud bang. I turned and saw his car. A car has hit the side of his car and skidded to the pathway. The driver’s side. The impact was great. It wasn’t long before I registered the scene and realized that he was in the car, sitting at the exact side where the car was banged. I ran towards the car, sobbing harder and harder, unable to take in the situation unfolding before my eyes. I went to him and saw him on the driver’s seat, his face with blood trickling down from his forehead and body injured. He talked in a soft, quiet voice.

“Hayley.. sweetheart.. I’m sorry the time we have together is so limited..”
“No. Don’t say that! We still have time. You’ll recover in time. The ambulance is on their way to get you. Just hold on!”
“Hayley, no matter what happens, promise me that you’ll take good care of yourself. And remember, even if I’m gone, my spirit will always be around you, protecting you and watching over you.”
“Okay, but you have to promise me that you won’t leave me. You can’t. Not now. We barely spent time together. I need you. ”
“Hayley, I love you….”
“NOOOOO…”

I moaned as he took his last breath, tears streaming down my face. I could not understand why is this happening. I stood there beside him, motionless, not wanting to let go of him. I heard the loud siren of the ambulance as I fell into a state of unconsciousness.

On the silent night of October 18th, at 11.45p.m. , I lost the person who meant the world to me. He was my best friend, my boyfriend, my life. Things were never the same for me again without him by my side. I hated myself for not confessing earlier. We would have more time together that way. I despised the drunk driver who killed him. All I wanted was more time with him. I missed his presence, his bright smile, the warmth of his hugs and kisses in my life. I prayed to go back in time so that I could stop the accident from occurring. I wouldn’t mind if God took me away, or anyone else for that matter. Why must it be him??

Now, a few years later, staring out at the trickles of raindrops, I played the memories we had together in my head. Wondering how things would be if he wasn’t gone and we were still together. I started sobbing again, crying my heart out at the reality of my situation, not understanding why he, the love of my life, the rhythmic beating of my heart, was taken so quickly from me. The room was cold, strong winds blowing droplets of rain, each drop feeling like a cut every time it hits my face. I felt a sudden warmth as a butterfly flew into my room, wet. I felt his presence and remembered what he said to me before he left for a better place. I smiled sadly, knowing that no matter what happens, he’ll always be with me.

“Our love is just like the wind,
♥ We cannot see it, but we can always feel it” ♥
- Quoted from “A Walk to Remember –

xoxo- Shu min

hitz.fm in Malacca

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hitz.fm in Dataran Pahlawan today.
We went there today to cheer on our friend, Wan Lin, who rocked the whole show!
Anyways, got a few AWESOME pictures (okay, it's alot).
Will upload it after this post.
Adam's REAL HAWWTT!!
I HEART HEART HEART HIM!!
And Wan Lin, Chao Wee and Sherwon have a crush on Jin.
By the way, it was great!
Today's a great day :D
HITZ.FM ROCK!
You made my day :D [ especially Adam :) ]
Below are the pictures we took. Enjoy!

ღ Us ღ

Up, up and away!
If you got it, flaunt it :D
Group photo! Look at Adam! SO HOT! :)
We love this!
Chao Wee's pants! nice!
Me and Chao Wee :)
I heart my babes!
Jin
Sherwon and Jin
hitz.fm crew and us
hitz.fm people
They rock!
ღღ Adam!! ILY!! ღღ Ean, Jin, Adam and JJ
ღღღ ADAM and I ღღღ

I heart him [Adam]
Adrian and I :)
Jin talking to Wan Lin

Wan Lin!
Jin with us :D
Wan Lin and I

Kah Sing and I

sweethearts :)

Natalie C. She's pretty!

Ean - funny :)
Jin - nice
Adam - super hawwt! ღღ
Jin Dancing to Avril Lavigne's Girlfriend

xoxo -Shu Min

Enrique Iglesias - Somebody's me

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Enrique Iglesias - Somebody's Me

You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?
Because I, I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own
And everyone can see that I really fell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you with somebody else

[CHORUS]Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me [2x]

How, How could we go wrong
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night that our paths will soon cross
And what we had isn't lost
Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

[Chorus]Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory
You, will you remember me
And before you set me free
Oh listen please

[Chorus]Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me [5x]

I love this song! It's verry sweet :)

xoxo-Shu Min